i gotta admit it..

hanggang ngayon di ko pa din makalimutan yung panaginip ko (REGLA girls, alam niyo yun!). i mean, i really can't forget it tapos kanina i saw "him" pa! ayos na eh.. im already handling the situation well then, tenen, nakita ko pa siya. sabay asar pa ni Kate tapos sapaw ni Lian at Karchelle o kamusta naman! hay.... what can i do, that's life.. and it will be like that forever!

anyway, i noticed myself going home early, i mean EARLIER than i used to be, my reasons (only possible reasons ü) are:

1. i'd love to regain my sleep.

* wait, WHO made me sleepless? haha.. check it out, its WHO! haha.. ok, it looks like im joshing--again--, but seriously, its all studies men!!

2. it's a good-relieving sight seeing my grandma lays off to chores as i arrive home.

* that's the least thing i could do for her, since she's been stressed early in the morning preparing for our food, baon and all.. so since my sister's ass was junked up at school, i'll give way na lang and be the best sister and grand daughter to help my granny! (i'm granny's favorite though! you know it tabs! im proud to say that laki ako sa lola! ü)

3. reminiscing is present on the list.

* simple, i wanna bring back the fossil memories of my past. wait, just the good ones to keep my compusure as good as new hehe :)

4. so that my mom will allow me for my future lakads.......

* be wise! kung baga sa socio, im in the exchange theory hehe :) (ma, sorry i gotta do this!)

AND..

5. i want to find myself.

* honestly, im lost! inside the room, i can't manage to understand each and everyone's aura (for the day). ok, im not making siwalat my feelings here but im just being me, this is what i feel! i know im not the only one who can feel "this".. journ people, we're on this! however, if i'll put this on my head as in like forever it would look like im a big-fat loser letting things just fall in their PROPER places. as much as i wanted to speak, i need other voices too.. I NEED YOU!! I GODDAMN NEED YOU!! men, the gap is getting bigger and fatter and larger and all! wag naman sana ganun..

hehe.. natatawa ako, bakit ganito ako kaseryoso! kakatakot! but really, seryoso ako sa reason no. 5 ko! sabihin mo nga saakin, hindi ba totoo ang sinasabi ko?..

nais ko lang naman ay maliwanagan at maisaayos ang namumuong lamat sa lupon ng mga mamamahayag sa katauhan natin, 1jrn2..

:)

pe.. getting better :)

i love track and field :) it is worth the sweats, body aches, hassles, 2 laps (UST field) run.. meen! just getting better every week! at first, nagsasawa na ako but then i realized im getting used to it as if i wanted to be in the field forever!!

TRACK AND FIELD is LOVE! i love it.. i love our instructor, i love my mates, i love the sport.. i SIMPLY LOVE IT!

* isa itong magandang ekspiryensiya na tiyak hindi niyo malilimutan..

teka, parang movie... hehe :)

believe me! :)

pagbabalik

hindi na ako masyadong nakakapag blog sa kadahilanang tambak na ang trabahong inilapat sa mga balikat ng isang peryodista/mamamahayag. (ahhaha!) idagdag pa ang ubod ng bagal na akses sa internet na lubhang kinayayamot ko. gayon pa man, pinipilit kong gisingin muli ang natulog kong paglalahad ng buhay...

"tila kahapon lamang
ng ako'y gumising at minulat
ang aking mata sa ganitong buhay,
dala ang ulirat
sa dilim at sakit ng realidad,
mahabag ka,
hayaan akong simiklo
sa halina ng aking panaginip,
huwag kunin ang karapatang
aking pinagtatanto
maging sa sakit na sumasabay
sa pagpalaot ng aking kaligayahan.
balang araw,
ako naman,
ang titikim sa realidad
na ipingakait
na kahit isang kutsarita lamang
ay ipinagdamot
sa aking labi..."

* i made this poem out of curiosity.. i had a dream last night.. damn, i had that wink again! its a mess to think of it as a "wink" of reality, vague though it may appear, but yun yun pare eh! mahirap i-define kung magiging totoo o hanggang panaginipo na lang talaga. alam ko na, we'll see! who knows, this may be something with good merits! hehe :)

* NEWS MAG- ng teteng! good luck saatin Lian, Karch, Kate and Apple.

totally romantic

i'm not exactly sure nor absolutely frantic about revealing and putting into words the "thing" i've been dying to decipher deep within.. just then i realized--almost scooted-- that i feel i am in need of depth evaluation with profound certainty that indeed... im falling inlove again.... romantically in-love with.....

You Are A Romantic

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to. Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you. Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted. Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

MEL :)

for the MAREs

so what if people look and blur about the sweet-precious relationship we "have" with our "HUSBANDS"?

so what if they curl their thinny-baldy eyebrows staring at the HOT MAMAs walking along?

so what if they caught us smiling without any particular reason at all?

so what about the manifesting rumors which flow and go whenever and wherever?

so how could it be possibly true that they knew what I--WE--were talking about?

and..

so what's the matter with all these stuff?

nothing in particular.. but one little-biggy thinggy is for real..

IMAGINATION could get any better!-----though indeed, it hurts and burns!

P.S.
Mares, see you guys all after a long-tiring-yet-blissful day... in GALLE! hehe :)

MISMO!

"hold on babe, i'll be out!"

so much to say that my husband and i were spending luring time together with this tramp, as good as it could get, it was figuratively spoken (you know what i mean guys!!).

it was always one blissful noche that i ever could experience with my lubidubi :)

... a horizontal tango forever!

P.S. readers below 13 years of age were advised to close the window instead, proceed playing Hangaroo and surely you'll GET the best out of it. Honey, this was a figurative agenda!.........

censored for short!

wahahahahaha... :)

"relieve '96 at 69"

>>goodness.

Even before the season starts, THEY came out with the statement: "WE'RE eyeing for the final four birth"-- and it was furiously said!-- and then THEY rattle out with the tough Warriors. Then after, THEY have come more than their expectations-- the FINALS.

After a heart-busting 1 point sorry lose from the blur-blur Eagles, they promise to rise and show them THEIR undefeatable claws-- they did indeed!-- now, they have landed to a winner-take-all battle which need not trophy but nevertheless, GLORY!

WHOOOOOOO.. GROWL OUT REALLY REALLY LOUD!! we dod it! C.H.A.M.P.I.O.N baby!

>>Now, i ned my statement.

After so many blur on whether-to-go-or-not-to-go, i sacrificed and die for TICKETS--i dont want this to be against "thebluecommunity" (cause i once "had" a wink on them) but it thruthfully shows that they are gahaman to hold the tickets so that the colesium would look like a sea or even BORA to show their support! well, HELLO!! who's gonna "gonna" now? that's what you call karma!! and a BIG one!-- i never regreted the tensions taht had happen cause it feels very very good-better-best!

CONGRATULATIONS TIGERS!!! (la mia tigre ü) for this GLORY. Indeed, the PRIDE IS BACK.

>>better watch out. we made HISTORY. we MIGHT do that again! :)

see you next SEASON!

P.S.
To "you" who made errors and shortcomings, baby, imperfections makes up a man. So Congarts! You'll always be my tigre! :)

and..

I LOVE YOU PIDO! :)

..the book

A Walk to Remember

by Nicholas Sparks

I've nevere been this fast in reading.. (though i love reading). Yesterday, i started reading it and today i already finished it with my face TOTALLY wet! i even had the tissue box beside me but then it wasnt enough to make me stop! my ate was beside me-- well i guess she was just making a hell out of me cryin for something she knew without reading would make me cry-- i don't mind her anyway! then my mom entered my "sacred room", "Sus, Chi (my name to my mom) napanood mo na binabasa mo pa"-- sorry ma, "its" been my life!-- then, i also quote the lines which triggered me most --excluding the fact that i quoted THE SCRIPT of the movie-- ha ha..

Well,, i've said this TRILLION of times already: "I LOVE A WALK TO REMEMBER" and that will never change.. it seems like i've been MARRIED to it and i wouldn't commit anything which lwads to divorce! My loyalty will remain as strong as SUPERMAN hehe (babaw!) wheee.. my tears are now over-- but not quite dry-- Really, i think my feelings for this movie/book/whatever will expalin how much emotional and sympathetic i am and how much i "LOVE" something too deep and special.

"Maybe it's God's plan"--as the book said-- that HE wanted me to be HAPPY! -- indeed!-- :)